I will do anything for love, but I won’t do that. Is a line from Meatloaf’s song. Let me tell ya I’ve done a lot of crazy things for love and continue to do them. However I will not do anything to damage my health. If anything loving and being loved has given me the strength to get the help I’ve needed to maintain my sanity. I’m still reaching out for help because there’s more work that’s needed to be done.
When something is worth fighting for, you do everything in your power to make it happen. When true love is at stake well…you’ll move heaven and hell to get back to it. BJ knows he has a love that only comes once in a lifetime and he will do anything to get it back.
Hearts and trust were never meant to be broken and Kalista wants to see BJ suffer; but she can’t deny that the attraction and love is still there. Maybe giving him another chance wouldn’t be so bad, if she didn’t have someone else.
From the moment BJ met Kalista, he knew she was the one for him, but too much alcohol and a bad decision left him on the outside looking in. Now, he’ll do anything to make up for the pain he’s caused her. All he needs is a chance to prove he’s worthy of her trust and love again.
And if that means challenging her current suitor…then let the best man win.
BJ noted the flicker of annoyance in Kalista’s eyes before her lips drooped downward. Interesting. He wasn’t sure if she was upset about Janice’s suggestion or just ready for this to be over.
He held up a hand. “I think I can take it from here. If I need anything else, I’ll call.”
After a moment’s hesitation, Janice nodded. “Very well. I’ll be in my office.” She closed the door behind her.
“Are you sleeping with her?” Kalista pounced as soon as the other woman left.
“No.” BJ held her gaze, hoping she’d see the truth in his eyes. His entire focus was on proving he could be trusted again. Despite his total lapse in judgment, Kalista had to know she was the only woman he wanted.
“Why do I even bother?” She spun on her heel.
He grabbed her by the arm and hauled her close.
He dropped his face to within mere inches from hers. “Because you still love me. Don’t bother denying it, Kalista. If you didn’t, you wouldn’t try so hard to make my life miserable. There is something you need to understand about this situation. We will always be in each other’s lives because of our daughter. I want to be civil. I don’t want to fight.
“I’m not even asking for your forgiveness, because you’re not ready to give it and I don’t think I deserve it. But we do need to come to some sort of agreement right here and now. We can either rebuild what we had or we can work through a mediator regarding Sydney.”
A flare of emotion he couldn’t quite decipher flickered in her soft chocolate depths. He released her and put space between them. “I don’t want to shut you out by using lawyers, but so help me I will.”
She had to understand how much this entire situation pained him. He had to do something to not only protect his assists, but if they couldn’t work things out, his heart as well.
“You think threatening me is the best way to get what you want? To help fix us?” She scoffed. “You are such a hypocrite.”
“No, I don’t, but like you, I don’t want to hurt anymore either. Seeing you, watching you frown, not being in the same house with you, not having you in my bed, hurts. Knowing I’ve made you cry breaks my heart. I have no one to blame but myself.” He searched her face, noting the fine sheen of tears she quickly blinked away. “Tell me what you want from me, Kali. I thought time would help, but…” He blew out a breath and waited.
Silence stretched between them. Despite his words to her, BJ would wait forever for her answer, if that’s what it took. He didn’t like the thought of never seeing Kalista again, but he had to pick up the pieces of his heart as well and bear the burden of having broken hers.